The past assures me of the things I shall not do in the future. Its makes my present almost right.
Ever met any ambitious person? Ever wondered why they are so enthusiastic? Why may be they can’t slept?
Truth is, you can’t sleep properly with all your many ambitions especially when you can’t be sure if any would ever be a reality.
The nights become long with heavy thinking of what you did right or wrong. Constant reflections on oneself become ways of life as one watches the battle between the i am to be success and the I am already failure.
You can’t always judge one when they think they can’t be a success. Given certain conditions, any individual may come to believe he or she at that time is of that situation and never out. With an arrow in the leg, a stab next to the heart, given a cold weather, snow may be, in the wilderness and with the knowledge that the shooter(chaser) is still looking, one would quickly think he is done. Anybody would. In fact, it doesn’t have to be that complicated but rather certain humans are so good at giving up that even when there is completely nothing after them, be it economical, physical, mental, emotional or any other problem, they just give up on looking for better. They simply accept the situation even when it ain’t fully satisfying. And that’s failure. It’s a battle where I am already a failure won.
Like oxygen, any ambition is as important to the well being of that fellow. It’s much simplier to give up on life when one has no reason to live for. Ambitions are reasons some humans live for.
We all can agree that as for now, we all live once. If I was told that I would be blind tomorrow, i would ensure to see as much as I can today. I believe any other would do the same. And it doesn’t have to be so much but only that I feel is worth my remaining hours of sight. Its about maximizing and never minimizing. That differs not so much from life itself. Life is of limited time with no certainty for tomorrow. With now one may create tomorrow and one truly owns now and his or her body. With these the battle to ensure success for “I am to be a success” is almost decided.
Well, at least we can say that its more than fifty percent a battle of thought.
And you ask why they don’t sleep?
Its quite unfortunate when u learn to get happiness from happy faces. The unfortunate being when they become sad you too become sad.
I convinced myself that in order to find happiness, I had to make others happy. Oh what a lovely thing to do?! But what, I was sad when they were and again happy. I came to believe in caring for others than myself alone. To be among the few from the masses. To refuse doing what others do cause everyone does the same. Atleast that’s what I believe in.
I came to think one is in this world to bring happiness to the other but not to oneself only has nurtured. It is a wrong way to look at life and will never be. The world is and was never about a single soul but many souls. Once one understands this, he may have a more understanding of life.
We mostly want to be the center of attention. But why? Your world can only be as big as where you are sitting or standing or laying cause in truth, our bodies are the only true thing we own physically. So.around oneself the world is as big as he thinks but it never is. The world is always bigger than around oneself. Happiness always bigger than around oneself.
I came to believe happiness wasn’t about having or lacking. I still can’t tell. May be people are happy because the are happy. You know, we breath because we breath. Live because we live. I thought of infants, no matter much or little given various chances, they were happy not because they knew little about life. Or because they were hoping for better tomorrow. But rather happy because they were living the moments of happiness. I guess happy because they were happy. But what to a grown man? What is happiness? Is it in others or in oneself?